In My Humble Opinion

When do the tears stop welling up in my eyes?

Since Dad died, there are a few things that instantly make my tears well up:

1. Seeing a dad and a child enjoying time together doing the simple things.
2. Reading a card offering condolences on my loss.
3. Seeing a picture of a man of similar age of my dad.
4. Hearing a song that my dad loved.

While I don't mind the tears - I know they make others around me uncomfortable. I have a whole new appreciation for 'purse packs' of Kleenex.

I know that I'm lucky when I think about my relationship with my dad. So many days/weeks/months spent together. Time talking about something, nothing or simply sitting together and being close. Laughter, tears, fears, and hopes discussed - lucky time that I enjoyed all because he got sick. How's that for ironic? I'm lucky because he got sick!

I think perhaps that if I stay close to Mom, I'm in someway staying close to Dad? I'm not sure if that makes sense to anyone but me....or

Maybe if I stay close to Mom, she keeps it together better? Or maybe I keep it together better....

You would think 80 years would have been enough time for the world to have enjoyed Dad....it wasn't!