1000 times more intense

There is a person who lives far away from here. This person has a huge decision to make. I am praying hourly for this person to make the very best decision possible. I hope this decision directly impacts my family. I hope that my family can celebrate this decision soon. I pray that this person is healthy and is at peace with the decision!

I'm so nervous and anxious and excited and fearful about the days ahead. There is so much anxiety in our family circle. It's the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about as I go to sleep at night. It's all-consuming. There is no diversion. Trying to maintain and be realistic and not "what-if" myself is virtually impossible.

I want to will the decision to be made in our favor. I want to will the decision be made quickly. I want that person to be at peace with the decision...but make it now!

This is so much different than when I was 24....the tension/anxiety is 1000 times more intense - just waiting for a phone call!