It's been a very long 13 months since Shelley and Steve became "paper pregnant". After a failed match 24 hours after delivery, the entire family has fallen back into the "when is the damn phone going to ring" mode!
Shelley and Steve appear from the outside to have weathered their first 'failed match' with the grace and poise of a prima dona ballerina! Crushed, angry and hurt on the inside, I'm sure - but never letting friends and family see that side of adoption.
I'm still dealing with the double-edged sorrow, anger and hurt. As a 'wannabe nana', I ache for a little adorable to hold and spoil. As a 'mom' to the adoptive parents that continue to wait, I ache for them to hold a little adorable of their own.
The jealous side of me sees many of my friends enjoying multiple grand kids and continuing to tell me "your time is coming"! "Your time is coming" is on my list of things I'll never tell a "paper pregnant" mom or grand mom....those words sting when delivered.
Emily is starting her third year of teaching elementary music this year and I absolutely love to hear the excitement in her voice again. She has such great ideas for those kids. I don't guess they'll ever know how lucky they are to have her as a teacher. Music is one of those happy memories for almost every elementary school age kid. I know she really wanted to switch to a band position this year, but God had other plans and I think she's really excited about seeing this year unfold. I hope so!
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